Sunday, May 13, 2007
Tired!!..
Tired and wear out after the night shift training today..omgosh!! 8 pm to 8 am man!! excluding travelling time from punggol to jurong and back from jurong to punggol again!!"hor-ri-en-dous" haha..previous night had majong with my cousin again (probably becuz of that ba, had only like 5 hrs of rest..haha..but very memo la..cuz the environment was totally different la..lolx!! u nv gonna guess where we played man..NEVER..ok back to my shift training..had lotsa fun during my shift work..control to field and field back to control..everyone was working very hard til 4 am..u nv know when tireness is gonna creep in until u start sitting down and stop all the work and communication..(could literally sleep when standing man)..was totally hopeless that night as well..(the only person that can hurt u most is the person whom u open your heart totally to)..taken to be compared with juz dont feel gd..(have been used to be compared with all of my youth..i know how it feels..bitter..hopeless..all u see is the slightest hope smashed) i know it becuz he simply juz trash me flat..i couldnt reach to even see him..not mentioning to hav a same level of competition..have been fighting all my youth to prove to them..but being overly optimisstic can become self denial..i dont want to move on and fight anymore..i know i cant reach it and will get hurt eventually...this wound is deep..very deep that it too years to heal..probably these times didnt heal my wound at all..it is juz unbearable..not gonna move anymore..not at all!! protect myself i must..
Posted by Endless_lov3 at 4:29 PM